ofenchant's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- and i smiled
Finishing university was a very important thing to me, because I am not a person who commits to the wholeness of projects, in general. I see fragments of detail, sections, split and applied, as a continuation of the everness of everything and beginnings and endings too compartmentalized to be concerned with, and yet. So I didn't finish it. But I started it. And I think that education is the fragment that took on greater firmament and development and latched onto me and so we stare at each other over the void and try to come together in some overly poetic, nonsensical way. I suddenly don't care anymore. Marriage is the greatest thing that ever happened to me and one of only two things that I ultimately wanted. So I am blessed in that regard. The idea of becoming something, proving my worth and making a mark on the world has mesmerised me for quite some time, though I never craved this intensely in childish innocence. The creation of the modern world and unreachable to me, I still have failures and daggers and war with the concept. I feel as though cloaked in the finest of Indian silk, feather light and everlasting, beautiful and pure. Work is a huge part of my life. And it's not a worthy cause in the eyes of many. But I am a contributing member of society and I feel that I have more time for the splendid and simple things in life. I work with my husband. I am passionate about my role in the business. I am drawing and creating and playing with characters. I think all day of haunting wind and travelling glances. I hung a beautiful sari in the kitchen window. I ate bacon and potatoes. I drank mango nectar. I went to Silent Hill. I watched Clerks 2. I dined with family and friends. I cried for Steve Irwin. I cried for my Nanna. I lived more this week than I have all year. I thought all about the people in the world who snicker and roll their eyes and come to sudden stops in front of people in shopping centres. I thought about all the stupid people who can't drive that I yell at every day. I'm going to take a holiday this year. 9:14 p.m. - 2006-09-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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