ofenchant's Diaryland Diary

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can't sleep

It's just that it still upsets me after all these years. I suppose it's part of me now and I can't blame it all on pregnancy hormones.

Because for the handful who are too busy dealing with their own drama, the rest of them just couldn't be bothered.

So now I feel like I have to start all over again and I do and I'm scared and that's probably normal, but I don't know if I can do it.

And I'm too afraid to say what it is because it'll make me sound retarded. I think they'll know who I am just by reading this and it will give them great pleasure to laugh at how I turned out when I was only trying to do my job, be a friend, start a life of my own.

It wasn't worth it, the job part at least, but I don't see how I could have done it any other way.

Just wish I could forget all about those bitches.

5:19 a.m. - 2011-05-17

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